VII
Practice
Meditations
Three outstanding pamong give the basic technique and orientation of the Sumarah meditation method.
Darno Ong
I will now try to explain the meditation that we
practice here; and when the time comes to discuss
special meditation, I ask that you join with me
while you are listening to my explanation and we
will try to put it into practice.
We call the meditation that we do here "relaxed
meditation".
Thus, it is done with a method based on
relaxation. There are two aspects to this
practice. The first is called "daily meditation"
and the second is called "special meditation". Now
I would like to explain what is meant by daily
meditation.
Daily meditation refers to the way we use our five
senses, our thoughts and our desires in daily
life. We will now begin with the way to use our
five senses. For example, when we use our ears,
the basic character of it is reception; just to
receive. The terms for this are to "hear" but not
to "listen". When you hear my voice, you should
receive it in your own place wherever you are. But
if you listen and concentrate, it is as if you try
to come to where I am in order to receive this
explanation. So when you "hear", it is relaxed,
but when you "listen", it is tense.
A second example is the sense of vision. When you
"see" something, this is relaxed, but when you
"look at" something, this is tense. Actually, our
eyes are like the lens of a camera so that when we
open our eyes, the scene in front of us just comes
in. Later when you are watching a soccer game or a
badminton match on the TV and you just watch and
"see" it, then you are the viewer and the sports
event is what is being viewed. That is relaxed.
But, on the other hand, if you concentrate on
"looking at" that event, you are no longer a
viewer but have become like a participant. So if
you have become like a player, when you watch the
badminton, you move too, and when you watch the
soccer game you also kick the ball. When you do
this though, after the match you will be tired
along with the other players. When you do that,
you have let go of your meditation and are no
longer a viewer but have become a participant.
Another example is the sense of smell. When you
just "smell" something, that is right and relaxed,
but when you "sniff", this is tense.
Now concerning the sense of touch, when you just
receive the sensation that is there, this is
relaxed, but when you try to feel something, this
is tense.
So the way to use the senses is to just receive
what comes in.
But now about thought and the desires.
Thought is a tool for thinking and planning. So
the way to use it is so that when you think or
plan, you do it here. When you think or when you
plan for later or for the future, that's all
right. But when you go or reach out into the
future while you are making plans for it, this is
what is not right. Since your body is here, your
thoughts should be here too. You should prepare,
plan and think here and now, even when it is for
the future. Don't reach out and think about things
that are far away as if you were far away, or
about tomorrow morning as if it were already the
present. Later you can practice this. For example,
when you are walking, when your thoughts are far
away then if something happens right in front of
you, you won't even know it.
What is meant by "reaching out" is going from here
to whatever you're thinking about in your
thoughts. So that reaching out happens when your
thoughts are far away.
The desires are like that too. For example, you
want to go to the movies at Sriwedari [an
amusement center]. The movie starts at seven
o'clock and you leave your home at exactly seven
o'clock in a becak [a three-wheeled bicycle
rickshaw]. Without even knowing it you will be
pushing the becak with your feeling to try
to make it go faster. When you do that, you will
become tense in your feeling.
If you already understand this, I will now try to
explain about daily meditation in a little more
depth.
Actually thought and desire already know what is
good and what is not good. For example, if I am
told not to smoke by a doctor because I have a
cough, my thoughts understand and my desires
understand that smoking has been forbidden. But
then it so happens that there comes a time when I
very much want to smoke, although at that moment I
am still aware that it is not good and that I am
not allowed to smoke. However, my willpower fails
me and finally I smoke.
A second possibility is that suddenly it occurs to
me that I am not allowed to smoke after I have
finished a cigarette.
A third possibility is that I want to smoke but I
am aware that I am not allowed to smoke so I
don't.
It's that way, too, with thought when you plan
something that is not good and at the same time
are aware of it. So sometimes you just go ahead
and do it and are aware of it at the same time.
But sometimes you become aware and understand only
after you have done something. But sometimes you
plan something but before you do it you become
aware of it and stop.
Therefore, outside of thought and desire there is
yet another capacity that can be aware of the
activity of thought and desire.
But what about when you have a desire that gets
expressed without your being aware of it at all,
when your awareness comes only afterwards? This is
caused by the power of very strong desires that
overwhelms the "knower" and pulls it into the
action. But afterwards when the desire is
satisfied and you have relaxed, the knower and
what the knower is aware of become a bit separated
and then you can realize it.
A second possibility is when the knower and what
it is aware of are too close together and not
relaxed -- not far enough apart -- so that when a
desire gets acted out, the knower is unable to
maintain its separate awareness and gets
overwhelmed and drawn into the action.
A third possible condition is when you are relaxed
and the knower and that which it is aware of are
rather far apart. Then even when a desire is acted
out the knower is still aware of it.
So the key to all this is the problem of
relaxation. When we are relaxed we are able to be
aware of the activity of our thoughts, the
activity of out desires and of out behavior.
Therefore, when we are truly in a state of
relaxation, the way we use our senses, thoughts
and desires is good and orderly and this is what
we call "daily meditation".
Daily meditation plays an important role. The
success of the daily meditation influences the
success of the special meditation. That's because
when you're relaxed throughout the day, it
facilitates relaxation when you do special
meditation. Daily meditation and special
meditation are closely tied together, and the one
cannot be separated from the other. So we must pay
more attention to our daily meditation if we wish
to achieve a good special meditation. When your
daily meditation is harmonious and stable, then
when you do special meditation your thoughts and
your desires will not trouble you.
If this explanation of daily meditation is clear,
I will continue with a description of what is done
in special meditation. While I am explaining this,
I would ask that you do it along with my
explanation.
.
Let us now get ready to do the special meditation.
First of all we relax the whole body. You should
try to receive these instructions wherever you
are. When you don't hear clearly, don't try to
reach out and listen as if you were here.
The way you relax all of your attributes is to let
go of all feelings of attachment, holding on and
grasping. Those of you who are already familiar
with this know that it is enough if you can be
aware of areas where there is tension and that in
time it will relax itself. It is best just to use
your feelings; don't use your thought, and don't
examine what you're doing.
Pay attention to your shoulders and the back of
your neck.
(silence)
Some have still not relaxed the backs of their
necks.
(silence)
Second, give attention to the tension in your
chest because the tension in the back of the neck,
the shoulders and the chest area will slow down
the release of tension in other parts of the body.
So now relax the tension in your chest. Don't push
the energy to the from but rather it is better if
the energy is in the back, with the idea of
eventually settling it down in the area at the
center of the back. When the attention is in the
back, the energy will follow it by itself. Don't
try to push the energy to the back.
(silence)
After the feeling has settled down to the back,
let go of it slowly so that the energy can settle
down until it rests quietly. The term here is to
"rest quietly".
(silence)
Now feel the soles of your feet so that the
remainder of energy settles downward.
(silence)
Now we will start to relax the body area by area.
We start by relaxing the area from the soles of
the feet to the knees.
(silence)
Now relax the thighs. Let go of all feeling of
attachment, holding on and grasping.
(silence)
Now relax the abdomen.
(silence)
Now relax the chest. The chest requires a fairly
long time because this is the area of emotion and
usually it is hard to keep this area quiet during
daily meditation.
(silence)
When the chest area is truly relaxed, the
breathing is smooth and the chest feels loose.
(silence)
Now relax the arms, hands and fingers.
(silence)
Now relax the shoulders, back of the neck and back
of the head. This area also requires quite a long
time.
(silence)
Now relax the mouth and jaws.
(silence)
Now relax the area round the eyes and the
eyeballs. This area also requires a fairly long
time.
(silence)
Now begin to relax your thoughts and desires. To
relax your thoughts, just don't think about or
examine anything. To relax your desires, don't try
to be right or good and don't be afraid of making
mistakes. It is enough to experience and just to
be aware. When you get this far, right and wrong
are no longer your concerns. Pleasant and
unpleasant are no longer relevant. It is enough
just to surrender. Just surrender. The meaning of
surrender is that you no longer need anything; you
just experience and are aware.
(silence)
With this the practice of special meditation ends
and we return to daily meditation. (Ronggowarsito,
ca. 1978)
Suwondo
All right, let's try to apply this. Let's try to
put what we just talked about into practice -- how
about it? When it is done right, meditation is
based on the various capabilities present and it
goes as far as they are able to go. How about it
though; before we had quite a lot of theory; now
let's try to do some practice and meditate as best
we can. Just now you were told about some of the
obstacles in meditation like when the ego tries to
manipulate the other tools in a way that is not
harmonious; this can obstruct your meditation. Try
it and you will see that if your tools are in
harmony it will help your meditation.
The basis is belief, belief in Tuhan or
belief in reality, the laws of reality. This is
the first thing. Therefore, in meditation the
tools are united in surrender. This means that the
ego can't stand on its own; it can't do anything
without the of the other tools. To take a simple
example, if I want to drink tea, if I wish to
drink tea; if the ego has a desire all by itself,
without the help of the hand, the mouth and so on,
it can't drink. The ego's desire to drink cannot
be accomplished and even the tasting of the tea,
whether it be sweet or whatever, cannot be
realized without the other tools. So I can taste
if it is satisfying, bitter, refreshing or sweet
if I am united together with the taste buds; only
with the help of the taste buds can you taste the
sweetness or bitterness or whatever.
So the ego can't stand or act by itself if it
isn't supported and together with the other tools.
That's why the ego must try to work in harmony and
strive for one goal: surrender. Furthermore, in
our belief in the existence of Tuhan,
Tuhan is actually the totally fundamental
strength that embraces and is the whole of nature;
we cannot free ourselves from that strength
because we are a part of it and are totally
contained by nature. So if you look at the ego and
compare it with the whole of nature, it is
nothing. There is an aphorism that says that if
the universe is compared with a desert, our world
is but a grain of sand and we are on that grain of
sand. What are we when compared with this vast
desert? And if the world itself is just a grain of
sand, what does that make us?
Allah. . .Allah. . .Allah. . .(silence)
Let us together yield in surrender to Tuhan
while confessing that we ourselves can do nothing
at all without the life which was granted us. The
universe which surrounds us is all one; try to fit
in with it, to be in accord with it in your
thoughts and your deeds.
Allah. . .
So reality is clean and there is no conflict
because your attention and your intention have
only one goal -- to unite with Tuhan Yang Maha
Esa. This meditation is an art for living so
that life can be faced.
Don't keep thinking about things. Don't try to
control. You should just follow, follow the
process of the meditation, follow the process of
rasa, follow the process of your own being.
When we enter into this our conditions and our
capacities are varied. When you can be truly
clean, things will become clearer. According to
another perspective, when that happens we have a
clear light that shines within us because there is
no struggle or conflict, and from it there arises
a freedom but the freedom entails
responsibilities.
Allah. . .Allah. . .Allah. . .
So beyond its use in finding neutrality, peace and
calm within, this meditation also helps us to
carry out our daily lives in an open, accepting
fashion. Another use comes when we are able to be
neutral and can examine and correct ourselves,
because then we can confront the life we lead.
When our special meditation attains neutrality,
this influences our daily life; and then in facing
our everyday life we can observe our condition
carefully and monitor the activities of our tools
so that they don't transgress against our true
nature. When you are able to apply this to your
behavior, it will benefit your spirit.
Allah. . .Allah. . .Allah. . .
Try to pay attention to your present condition so
that you can learn from it and feel it more fully.
Most of you have attained your limit, though there
are some who have not gotten that far because you
are still influenced by your own condition.
(Kerten 6/11/79)
Suhardo
That's right. Don't delay it. What you need to do
is to put yourself in order. Why do you practice
Sumarah if you are not willing to put
yourself in order? In surrendering to Tuhan
Yang Maha Esa the main thing is that your
physical and spiritual aspects must strive towards
receiving reality.
So you must do this. It's hard, but you must do
it.
To attain true faith, what you need is to stand on
your own two feet. That means without a guide.
When you can do that, then you can correct
yourself. And you correct yourself like this, "How
is my daily meditation? How can I improve it? What
is the aim? What should I do so that my being will
become united and so that I will be neutral and
calm?" That's what's lacking. This right here.
It's not enough just to collect your confusion and
bring it to a guide. This is not good because you
will go quicker if you do it yourself. Therefore,
with this, I give you this task: put yourself in
order, unite your physical and spiritual aspects
and strive to receive being and reality. This is
the main thing.
It's not that all of you are going to be able to
settle into the fourth level today, the level of
surrender, but you will be able to make a stride
forward. For example, from the level of resolve to
the level of faith, or from the level of young
faith to the level of true faith. Or if you have
already attained true faith, you should be able to
reach the fourth level: surrender.
So in time you will attain surrender.
The most important tool for making these advances
is daily meditation. If you just try to do the
meditation here, without applying it in daily
life, it's of no use. Actually Sumarah's true
practice is daily meditation and self-criticism.
You must. Daily meditation without self-criticism
is not possible; you must correct yourself. So
every second you must devote yourself towards
receiving reality, that is, with awareness. Be
aware of what resists this within you until you
attain complete awareness of rasa murni. Awareness
has different levels, and not everyone is the
same, but you must be able to correct your
condition on your own.
The key to correction is rasa. Your rasa
must examine within, observe within and correct
within. That is the way. Isn't that calm, calm and
neutral?